I knew I wanted to focus my monthly favourite post on self love and mental health and I feel like this is going to be one of those posts where it’s a big old ramble but I just want to type and get it all out. This isn’t your typical monthyl favourites but from this month the thing that stood out to me was self-love. I was feeling so good in myself at the start of the month but it’s gone down hill. But although I’m feeling slightly more on the negative side I want to make this post focus on the positives and maybe if you’re feeling crap then it could cheer you up or it could totally not…
- Feeling Shit-
We all have them times when we feel shit in ourselves and at the start of this month I was feeling super happy in myself but it’s all gone downhill from there but I wrote this post to get it all out and to say that’s it’s okay. I always spread the love, I’m a lover of love and I feel like I always see the best in people. I think the main reason why I feel crap if because I overthink and I’m such a big worrier. I care too much on what people think of me, worry about whether people like me which leads me to think the world hates me. And I feel like it sounds stupid but you know you have them days when you just feel like you could burst out crying every second well that’s all I’ve wanted to do for the last couple of days. I know that no ones opinion matters and no matter how much I tell myself I don’t care, I overthink and then feel like everyone judges me. And I feel like all these little things have just crowded over me at the moment but I feel like after I get this all out then I can focus on the positives.
- Doubting Myself-
This is hands down definitely the thing I do best (which says something because I’m a talented girl… not). But I can hold my hands up and say that I always doubt myself which leads me to feel crap in myself. I do not have a lot of confidence in myself at all and I’ve been really trying to feel more positive in myself and be happy in myself but I feel like I’m getting no where. I know my confidence isn’t going to just come and I know I need to work on it, I’m never going to be a confident person but I just want to have a little bit more and overcome my fears.
But I called this post self-love because that’s what I want my monthly favourites to be because I don’t have as much self-love as I want to but it’s what I’m going to work on. I come first and I’m important. So is everyone else, it’s not selfish. Everyone is amazing and I’ve met the most amazing people throughout my blog. Honestly the blogging community is so caring and I feel so grateful to have met some fabulous people throughout my blog. But I want to focus on self-love because I feel like everyone needs to know that self-love is important. It’s not big headed to love yourself and I often see tweets on my feed of people feeling crap in themselves (yes I’m currently one of them) and it breaks my heart seeing my friends upset in themselves when they’re so amazing.
So if you feel like everyone hates you, everyone’s better than you, or just feel shit in yourself then block it out. Believe in yourself. And I know it sounds so cringe-y but I’m currently feeling so bored and fed up in myself and you just need to tell yourself that daily reminder and get it into your head. My goal is just to believe in myself. To have confidence in myself and be proud of myself.
I’m not weak, stupid, ugly, horrible or annoying. No one is. Everyone is different & everyone is amazing.
I don’t really know if this post made sense to read, it’s one of those when I know what I want to say but can’t get it out in the right way. I just wanted to tell myself this and try and inspire me to be the best I can be and close the book on my mind running around in circles and start December fresh and be the most positive I can be.
But my new words to live by are; ‘spread happiness and love yourself’.